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When people tell me how they've stopped masking I'm just like "How?!" I spent so many years masking without even realizing it that I don't really know how to stop now when I'm not at home. I wish I knew how to stop though. It's pretty exhausting sometimes.

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2020-08-02

When I get stressed it's like my brain does everything it can to make me even more stressed. Instead of trying to calm down my mind immediately goes to worse case scenario and it just drains me.

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2020-08-12

You can't be an autistic ally AND support Autism Speaks. You just can't. You can't support an organization that is pro-ABA, demonizes autism, and silences autistic voices and be our ally. Go rethink your position.

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2020-08-23

It's like mixing up two phrases together, but with your fingers! The disconnect between my brain and my fingers is...interesting sometimes.

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2020-08-30

There's a HUGE difference between celebrating an accomplishment by a disabled person, and making a feel good story about the fact that we simply exist in a world not built for us. We aren't here for your entertainment, or your ableist pity.

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2020-09-02

When I have a meltdown or I shut down it's very rarely caused by just one thing. It's a build up of a bunch of little things others may not notice. They eat away at my spoons until I have none left, and I just can't handle anything anymore.

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2020-09-13

I hate when people come over unannounced. I don't care if I have nothing on my schedule I need time to prepare my mind for social interaction. You come over without warning and my mind doesn't have that time to prep.

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2020-09-27

24 hours until my very first YouTube Livestream! Come join me at

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Can't wait to see you there!

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2020-10-03

Isn't it great when you're trying to work, or sleep, or ANYTHING and your brain just won't shut up. I've laid in bed for hours trying to sleep but can't because my brain just has to tell me about a bunch of useless stuff for no reason!

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2020-10-07

When the autistic mind gets going it tries to analyze it's own thought process, and then tries to analyzes the thought process of that thought process, and so on and so on in a never ending loop. I'm not inattentive, my mind is just busy.

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2020-10-11

The neurodivergent community is a lot bigger than many people realize. Having any condition that makes your neurology diverge from the typical makes you neurodivergent. If you have one or more of these conditions than welcome to the family!

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2020-10-21

I've never been able to "just be me" without being labelled. I think it's one reason why, even to this day, I mask so much. At least with the label of autistic it's one that I like, and feel a connection to. I'm proud to be autistic.

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2020-10-25

November 13th is International Day of Kindness, and Autism Speaks has been promoting it by encouraging others to be kinder to autistic people, and the hypocrisy is just palpable. They do so much harm to autistics. I'd be laughable if it wasn't so frustrating.

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2020-11-11

Loud noises often physically hurt me, but you start blaring some power metal and I am there! Give me Sabaton! Give me Blind Guardian! Give me Manowar! Loud noises? Boo! Loud metal music? Yay!

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2020-11-29

I find that when you're open about an aspect of yourself that society is used to people hiding they say this sort of thing. Yes, I'm more than my autism, but it's still a part of me that I'm loud, and proud of.

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2020-12-09

It seems like not everyone sees these sorts of things as bullying. They'll say that they're so nice, and accommodating towards autistic people and then actively ignore our boundaries, and mock our behaviour.

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2020-12-13

Flashback Friday: Originally posted October 24th 2018

Nothing like hyperfixations to take over your entire life leaving you no room for anything else! When I latch on to a character I dig my talons in hard!

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2021-01-01

Some days are so much worse than others. It's a struggle just to get out of bed. If you've had days like this it's okay. You did your best even if all you did was survive.

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2021-01-03

Flashback Friday: Originally posted October 31st 2018

Vagueness is the bane of my existence. There's just too many variables as to what the person means, and I don't have the ability, nor the confidence to assume what they actually mean.

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2021-01-08