I think Gordon-John grew up with me mentally too somewhere in the corner of my soul. Idk but it feels like I need him again when my heart and mind are burning.
5 years ago I closed & archived all my old settings and characters as an attempt to forget my past. I tried to put Gordon into the far box but in 2019 I came up with a separate Weerewolf AU setting with him, as an alternative version of his story not related to his canon story
When I created Gordon-John I considered him as a character I should look up to in terms of emotional toughness. He has always been independent, not attached to others and self-reliant.