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TEAR MY SIGHT; TEAR MY VISION; TEAR MY EYES.
the birth of my curse and my pain, so final that it feels as if there was nothing before it.
such a damning thing it
has brought me to my knees.
I CAN SEE I CAN'T SEE,
I CAN'T SEE WHAT I CAN SEE.
kill me for i can't,
be me.
maybe i'm too blind to see,
that death is all that walks with me.
the nature of the self was never far behind; it was merely the mortal mind which had yet to catch up, to recognize, to see, to know.
to witness,
bloodprints.
no technical prowess to be seen here; but oh so much bliss.
to be dead, yet knoweth; among a field of golden flowers, of dandelions and dandelion-adjacent forms.
golden fields, golden fields for my hurting bones and rotten flesh. gods, what euphoric divinity have i found...
it was no small feat, to capture the weight and freedom of wielding a lance- something i myself have found interest in. it was the client's choice to see their character in the monster hunter world gear.
fun game, if a bit too much for my rotten brain now.
for @Thrumond
i will bleed for you,
i will bleed into you.
you asked for this, didn't you?
you saw me, you picked me;
and i picked you.
as if i wouldn't unmake me,
to unmake you.
as if i wouldn't unmake you,
to remake me.
contempt.
complete invalidation.
nothing to redeem you.
you are alone
with your shame.
beneath a lycan's gaze.
for noxyfer.
this cell, this spell,
of my blood bent.
every step is a mistake,
because my feet are not for here.
every breath is pain,
because this air is poison.
every move means death,
because my poise is broken here.
yet i will stay.
i will smell you.
i will know you.
i will unmake you.
set me up, set me on fire,
in the flames i will squirm
arching back to what i've known.
my own confidence, my own arrogance,
my absolute divine conviction of self.
i will not break
even as i submit,
beneath my feet the blood flows,
heralding a predator's pounce.
i will not die.
COWER, MORTAL
wail before the thunderous screech of your superior, shiver as you hear the banshee demon's call;
for it calls for you, for your flesh to rend and your bones to shatter, to give you purpose as object of consumption... to give itself purpose in your destruction.