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somewhere during sophomore year of college (so 2014-2015), i realized i was Not As Happy, and figured it out was because i wasn't drawing as much. but i was too busy to really work on it, so i let it be for a while.

spoiler: i did not get happier by doing that

at this point, i wasn't drawing much outside of rp, and many of my rp groups were dropping off around this time too, so i wasn't doing as much art
not that i realized. i was in college on the other side of the country, doing cool shit, like fencing, and making friends, and living

whoops, jumped forward a few years too fast.

graduated high school in spring 2013, started college the following autumn, and drawing ended up going on the backburner a lot more than i realized.

putting these two together because they were my first commissions -- though, it took me definitely at least 6 months to get these done. that commissioner had so much patience...

constantly trying new things is something i still do, now that i'm thinking about it
i'm still looking for ways to push myself artistically, to continue to grow and grow and grow

oh that last one did not transfer well at all
mmmmoving on!

a lot of my growth as an artist can be attributed to me picking up things from other artists in the roleplaying community. things that other people were doing, that i thought was cool and decided to try also.

like comics.

i guess it makes sense, i've always liked drawing for other people! and i still do, that certainly hasn't changed

what else can i reflect on hmmm
oh wait i was talking about feeling performative
maybe i should have tried out theater, with all the acting i was doing to feel like a regular person

( man this thread is really long, and i'm still in the 2012s )

( i tend to do a lot of reflecting on my own time, maybe too much so. )

oof, one of the things i definitely changed: i used to draw Really Small, and now i'm drawing at much more manageable sizes.
(this one is tiny)